He's been complaining of a pain in his shoulder for the past week or so. So yesterday he goes in for an MRI, and they find a 'soft mass' which in all probability is cancer. So tommorow he goes in for another scan to see whether or not it's moved into his brain.
My dad is almost 83 years old. He's been living on borrowed time ever since his lung cancer surgery early last year. This shouldn't be as awful a shock as it feels, but it still is. I know he's not immortal, but if it is brain cancer, then it's going to be so totally, fucking unfair. He's good man. He doesn't deserve to have his mind stripped away from him like I know it will. He shouldn't have to go through painful surgeries to again to buy him more time. It's not fair. It's not fucking fair.
My dad is almost 83 years old. He's been living on borrowed time ever since his lung cancer surgery early last year. This shouldn't be as awful a shock as it feels, but it still is. I know he's not immortal, but if it is brain cancer, then it's going to be so totally, fucking unfair. He's good man. He doesn't deserve to have his mind stripped away from him like I know it will. He shouldn't have to go through painful surgeries to again to buy him more time. It's not fair. It's not fucking fair.
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Date: 2004-02-03 06:09 pm (UTC)As my own granny ages I am starting to see signs of a bit of deterioration, some slowing down and increasing forgetfulness. It's heartbreaking, but as she's lost friends and siblings over time...well, I've just decided to be grateful for the time I'm allowed. I try to talk to her every other day and visit at least twice a month (it used to be once a week but it's harder and hard to make the time). But I'm thankful for the fact she's in such good shape, still feisty and fun and full of life...and that she's got a man who loves her and supports her.
Spend as much time with your dad as you can.